Indetectables

Hi, I´m some guy with shitty luck, I had a very nice collection of vics using no-ip and all that and I got a little problem.. I had a series of heart attacks and shit and when I woke up at the hospital, guess what.... I have lost like 20 years of my life, believe it or not and it sucks big time, because i can´t remember teh websites where I got my RATs from so if you could help me out with some other websites the kind of this one or where to get these rats, I would be very grateful, a list of websites to check would be amazing maybe that way can trigger something in my memory, well the rats I used and with the versions are:
- Bifrost 1.8 I think?
- Xtreme Rat v2.06
- Poison Ivy, I don´t remember the version
Please if you could help me, I´d really appreciate